my manifesto

this is a lot longer than i thorugh it would be

2009-08-09T16:27:00.000-07:00

hello.

i've been home for approximately 2 weeks. and it has been great fun. went beach camping with the family, which was AMAZING! I really enjoy time with my extended family. It is much more enjoyable than it used to be. Growing up I never had a super close cousin friend, cause no one was my age. So I always felt like the odd one out and therefore ended up just sitting around with the adults and listening to them talk. That's all I do now, but the difference is that I understand all of the hilarious things they are saying and I can actually contribute to the fun. It is great and I get to do all the grownup things (play games) that I wasn't allowed to in my earlier years. The adults are all really nice and they do the age cut-off for fun activities at 20. I am finally making the cut!

tomorrow, i'm doing an acting workshop for some of the kiddies in EGMTC. Landon was going to do it with me, but she is stuck in Loomis (how sad) so i'm gonna hafta fly solo. It'll still be good. I'm excited.

This weekend was the first ever YSA conference for ALL of California. It was fun. There could have been a few things I would have changed, but overall I enjoyed it. Especially the Sunday session. There were a lot of GREAT talks, and I really was able to feel the spirit and get some personal revelation.

I'm excited to head back to Provo on Wednesday. It feels like I've been gone for years, and I miss everyone. I'm super excited to be able to hear Kik speak at her graduation. Her speech is absolutely AMAZING, and I already feel famous cause I am her bestie. I also can't wait to see Cath. I miss you terribly, and It'll be great to just hang with her for a while.

I'm excited for NW, but I'll keep that topic and save it for it's own post, cause I could go on for years.

I just made a new blog called: the roommate blog for me and Katie. It is going to be a video blog, and we have already posted twice. I'm excited, cause it'll be a good way for her and I to just cool off and have fun while we are roommates this upcoming year.

that is all for now.

-- create --

2009-06-29T17:14:00.001-07:00

do what you love, and make it change the world.

let's make this thing go viral

2009-06-21T12:56:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!!

I wish I knew just how many people read my blog. Cause that would be cool...BUT...I have just decided that I want to make this video go viral. It is of Noteworthy (the a cappella group I am in) singing 'Listen' from Dreamgirls in Oregon. We love the great state of Oregon and have grown attached. I have decided that if everyone who sees this video...posted it somewhere, or e-mailed it to a couple of their friends, then we could potentially get a few more dedicated fans. So...now is your time. Here is the challenge:

Share this link/video with all of your friends

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmWdlMYRsVU

Then, you will be Noteworthy's best friends forever.
That's a big deal.

I LOVE YOU ALL! - and let me know what you think :)

2009-06-17T11:41:00.000-07:00

I have found a new love in life and her name is

Laura Izibor.

I don't really know how to say her last name, but i'm over it. Not important.
What is important is the fact that she sings sweet lullabies to my heart and I absolutely love it.

Favorites:
Mmm...
Shine

Go listen and learn.

Jen Vlogs

2009-06-05T09:37:00.000-07:00

http://ssstanding.blogspot.com/

hey all! I am in a play. It is called Standing Still Standing, and I play Jen, the best friend of the leading lady. Anyway, I do VLOGS (wideo blogs) every Wednesday, on the blog above, to advertise for the show. If you want, you should check it out. You should also tell everyone you know about it. We are trying to get the word out, and ya...share this blog with everyone. Go.

I love you all.

Let That Be Enough

2009-06-03T13:41:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is my birthday. is it sad that i am more looking forward to saturday? it is always weird spending holidays away from family. even tho i have tons of friends here, birthdays just aren't the same without a birthday dinner at grandma's and my family singing happy birthday. 22 isn't a big deal, but i guess i am just beginning the understand that the more birthdays you have, the less they begin to matter.

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I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

Rock Climbing

2009-05-19T15:37:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I went rock climbing for the first time in a LOONG time with Chad and some of his roomates. It was basically awesome except for the fact that right now every time I press down on the keyboard my forearms feel like they are being cut open with a steak knife. OUCH! Anyway...here are some pics of the epic evening:

Putting on the super small/foot binding rock climbing shoes

So good looking and ready to race up the wall...yup. I lost

The "cute picture" : Camille, Evan, Kim, Caleb, Me, Chad--and random couple The "we-are-so-cool-we-know-how-to-rock-climb-picture"

Chad---strapping in!

This picture is basically....artistic. we are cool.
Me...dead after getting to the top of a really hard wall. ya....i basically died.

Chad having to untie me...cause my fingers couldn't grip the rope to untie my awesome 8 knot.

Awesome Female Beatboxer

2009-05-14T14:23:00.001-07:00

Cute Girl Has Amazing Beat Box Skill - Watch more Funny Videos

power to the female beatboxers everywhere! Anyone can do it. how will you know if you never try?

Prophet & Oregon

2009-05-11T13:06:00.000-07:00

These pictures are from our trip to Oregon. I can't even begin to describe how much FUN we had. It was seriously like meeting Noteowrthy's twin. The ladies of Divisi were so hilarious and I don't think I could have expected a better weekend. When we were in Oregon we also go the change to hike Multnoma Falls and it was a TON of fun. I'm usually not one who likes to hike a ton....mostly because I am a weakling, but me and Katie toughed it out...kinda and got halfway up the trail before we stopped and had sister bonding time. The first picture up here is one of us singing at EMU (Uof O's Wilk). Basically I want to go back to Oregon and live there. I love green, and it was EVERYWHERE!!

This picture was taken before we sang at a business school gig up in...I don't know...random town in UTAH.This picture is took us like 50 times to take, cause turns out it is really difficult to get three crazy girls to NOT smile all at the same time.

In case you were wondering...yes that is the prophet. Thomas S. Monson. Noteworthy had an AMAZING opportunity to sing How Great Thou Art at a LDS Print Services recognition for him. Before we sang, Me, Katie, Amy, and Cooley got to meet him and shake his hand! I never thought that I would get that opportunity in this lifetime, and I was so amazed at how kind and gentle he was. These pictures are of the whole group right before we wont on to sing. I can't even begin to explain how amazing it ws to be able to sing that song for Him and to see his smile at us from across the room as we praised our Lord through the gift of music.

with my by myself....

2009-04-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

this is just one of the many things that i walked away with from my AMAZING weekend in Oregon. stay tuned for a more detailed post!

There's only room for 24 letters

2009-04-20T16:41:00.000-07:00

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

If you could vote 2 letters off the island, which would you choose?

personally I vote "Q" and "K" off the Island.

Q: obviously because you NEVER use it. that's always then the alphabet game stops in the car or you just decide to cheat because there are no quail farms around.

K: easy, anything "K" can do "C" can do better.

saltines- a special special appearance

2009-04-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

Love Story meets Viva La Vida

2009-04-16T15:04:00.000-07:00

My favorite musical

2009-04-12T10:33:00.001-07:00

It is one of my life dreams to pull something like this off...

Sound of Music Train Station @ Yahoo! Video

Encouragement Eggs

2009-04-09T11:34:00.000-07:00

Some of my friends from my freshman ward recetly posted pictures of these eggs that he made. After he made them he hid them all around campus for people to take and enjoy the encouragement that they bring. I really liked the idea and I may or may not spend my afternoon making some of my own.

the one above is a square of TP...HAHA!

Ugly Picture contest

2009-04-01T22:41:00.000-07:00

So...today, Cooley and I got a little bored during mission prep so we started taking ugly pictures of ourselves. I then forwarded them tot he other Noteworthy ladies and these are the pictures I received throughout the rest of the day!

I love ugly pictures :)

Beats

2009-03-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

half of my beatbox solo at our show last weekend at the Covey Center

Are You Taking Pictures?

2009-03-07T21:10:00.000-08:00

random pics from kik's camera

2009-03-03T12:52:00.000-08:00

me and kik...we got a special ride to the grocery store in the cosmobile. ya...we are cool.
katie, me, kik. BYU football and freezing.
noteworthy, i think this is when we sang in August 2008 for a youth conference
kik, me, catherine. out to dinner in AZ
me, kik, and jesus - our other best friend.
me and ciara!!! yay for sisters.
me and kik at a wedding reception.
dustin, landon, me and kik at yoasis listening to rockin music and talking about the weird people eating yogurt.

The School Of Music

2009-02-27T11:06:00.000-08:00

In case any of you were wondering...this is what REAL music looks like. Dr. I-am-the-director-of-BYU-singers-and-we-are-the-2-karat-diamond-in-the-school-of-music's-platinum-ring-Staheli, thinks so, and we all know that what he says...goes. Many of you may have been deceived when you thought that music could be made by 9 girls singing a pop ballad from Dreamgirls. But turns out you were wrong. International Champions of Collegiate Acappella, can only make noise...not music.

p.s.

2009-02-23T21:45:00.000-08:00

anytime i am sad...i just watch this video, and i am immediately happy.

byu is great

2009-02-23T21:18:00.000-08:00

so...byu is great.

a little over a week ago i was in my LDS lit class, being bored, and i was playing with the ring my mom got me for christmas. it was basically my favorite present. i love it. and while i was playing with it, i dropped it and it rolled like 2 desks away underneath a girls backpack. i made a mental note to get it after class, but if you know me, my mental notes are as permanent as etch-a-sketch's. so when the bell rang at 3:50 i was out of there. it wasn't until the next day that i realized that i had forgotten to pick up the ring.

well..today, 10 days after the incident, kristin had been reminding me to go look in the lost and found. i was sure it wouldn't be there, cause this ring is the coolest thing ever and i was sure that the person who had found it would have kept it for eternity. But i went and amazingly some kind hearted soul had given it to the lost and found.

yay for honest people at byu.

My doodles and Things

2009-02-18T13:04:00.001-08:00

This is the back of my notebook. I got this notebook for free from the bookstore...and it had an ugly add on the back for HP computers. I made it pretty.

I did this today in my Dramatic Literature class. They were talking about Marxism, and I wasn't.
Ya...so turns out i do the same thing in all my doodles. I just use different words. Can you tell what I'm obsessed with?
These are my LDS lit notes from 2 weeks ago. I did all of that in 50 mintues.
This is the title of the play I am currently Stage Managing. I think about it A LOT!
I don't know if you can really see it, but that is a 74/75. I just got this test back today from my Dramatic Lit Class. Doodling rocks my world.

oh say can you see?

2009-02-04T13:26:00.001-08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=SCuJAgR5ynw

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2009-02-02T14:03:00.001-08:00

1. If I could have a life time supply of anything in the whole world it would be Savannah's Grandpa's homemade beef jerky.
2. If I had to give myself a title...it would be 'artist'. I love to create, not just in the theater, but on paper and through music as well.
3. My biggest fear in life is failure and disappointing the people that I love.
4. I waste probably 3-5 hours a week watching youtube videos. Mostly of beatboxing and a cappella.
5. I have spent my whole life building walls. I have always been afraid of letting people in, and just in the past month, after 21 1/2 years of life, I have begun to realize that I can't do things on my own. I need people...I need to trust people.
6. I am honestly afraid of what my life will be without noteworthy.
7. I love cereal...way too much because I am lactose-intolerant, and I can't afford lactaid ($5 for a half gallon!!??!??!?! I don't think so.)In no particular order Reeses Puffs, Cinnamon life, Grape nuts, Coco Dynobites, Marshmallow Mateys, Trix, Chex, Apple jacks, Pops, Capt'n Crunch, cookie crisp, and Oh's are just a few of my favorites.
8. I listen to my ipod anytime I am walking anywhere. Even if it's just from the JKB to the HFAC. I feel empty when I leave it on my desk at home.
9. Not meaning to toot my own horn, but lately I keep getting the feeling that one day I will change the world...not sure how yet, but i'm going to try.
10. I peed my pants on a trampoline once. I think I was 11...luckily I was not wearing pants, i was wearing my bathing suit...It was at a pool party. I just jumped in the pool...problem solved.
11. I cried when I typed that last one...I forgot how funny that was, mostly because I was very embarrassed at the time. I don't get embarrassed very easily anymore.
12. My favorite holiday is 4th of July.
13. I hate shopping, it gives me anxiety. Just ask my mom...or katie, or kristin...or anyone really that has been shopping with me. The only exception to the 'shopping-gives-me-anxiety

' rule is ties. I love shopping for ties.
14. I have bad circulation...which means my hands and feet are ALWAYS cold. which sucks cause I can't sleep with socks on.
15. I cry a lot. When i sing, in cars, in theater, sometimes when I am just walking to campus, when I hear a good song, or just when i'm cutting some onions...wouldn't have pegged me for that kind would you?
16. I love lightning, rain, and thunder.
17. Sometimes I take a sick day from school, work, and life...even when i'm not sick. It helps to keep me sane.
18. thanks to Nicole Hogge, i dislike odd numbers. Like volume in the car or on the TV mostly...just keep it even.
19. Anytime and every time I get onto a computer i check three things. yahoo mail. gmail. and facebook. usually nothing exciting has happened. but i still have to check. cause what if?
20. I cannot spell or punctuate properly to save my life. sometimes i wonder if i lived back when they didn't have spell check, if i would be considered illiterate.
21. I love ice. not on the ground...but in my drinks. I hate lukewarm drinks.
22.I burp too much. that's not really a secret. everyone who knows me knows this. and they secretly wish i would stop.
23. I get lost in music. In good music. For example. I just got distracted and took a 15 minute break between the last sentence and this one because of 'You Found Me' by the fray.
24. People change me. I look up to many people. to name a few. Kristin, Catherine, Landon, Mego, My mother, Katie, Ciara, My Father, My grandparents, nicole, jeff, casey, Kelsey, Cotch, Jenga, NAbz, Hash, Cooley, Pea, Amy, basically every noteworthy lady who is, was, and ever will be. Each of you have helped me, changed me, loved me. thank you.
25. i love the smell of coffee.

How Great Thou Art

2009-01-28T11:30:00.000-08:00

This is a paper I just wrote for my mission prep class. I realized that I never did document this moment of my life properly...but this is my latest attempt. I don't know that I will ever be able to truly write in words how this felt.

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It was April 21, 2007. I walked onto the Alice Tully Hall Stage of the Lincoln Center in New York City with eight other girls. We had prepared for this moment for months on end and it was finally here. We were about to sing for a sold out crown at the finals of the International Championship of Collegiate A cappella. If you had asked anyone in that audience if 3 months previous they had even heard of Noteworthy from Brigham Young University they would have said no. We had twelve minutes to show them what we were about, and we gave them everything we had. We sang four songs that night, and while three of them were flashy and impressive, we truly only cared about one of them. After the first two songs we all looked at each other and realized that this was the moment. The whole reason why we had gotten this far was because of this song. The pitch is played and we begin to sing, “Oh Lord my God. When I in awesome wonder consider all the worlds thy hands have made.” I remember thinking, who can I touch today? Will there be someone in this audience who will feel the spirit this message brings? “How great thou art, How great thou art.”

The year of 2007 was a difficult one for me; I had been struggling with my own self, and depression. I remember struggling with simple questions, who am I really? Why am I here at this university? I felt inadequate and small. Then I got into Noteworthy, the all female a cappella group on campus. I still struggled but I felt better. I felt like I had a reason to get up in the morning because Noteworthy was something I loved and that I was good at. I could open up on stage and share the gift of song I had been blessed with, with all those who would listen. A few weeks after the semester had started; we had auditions for the solo in ‘How Great Thou Art’. I got it, and while that seemed like such a small thing, it truly changed my life. Although I struggled with small things that solo was a blessing because every time I sang it I felt my Fathers love for me. I felt love. I have been in the group for three years now, and to this day every time we sing that song, I cry. It reminds me of the power my Heavenly Father holds and that he knows everything about me. He knows what I need and how to lift me when I’m having difficult times.

There had been miracles that year with this song. We had the opportunity to sing it for thousands of people across the Country. There were numerous times after performances where people would come up to me and thank me for sharing that song. When I had felt so inadequate that year, I learned that I had been chosen to be a tool in the Lords hands to share the love I had begun to recognize, with so many people who didn’t have the gospel in their lives.

It was the time for my solo, the lights were bright and I felt the warmth of the spirit course through my body. “When Christ shall come with shout of acclamation, and take me home what joy shall fill my heart. And I shall bow in humble adoration, and there proclaim my God how great Thou art. Then sings my soul, How great Thou art.” I am sure that this song was the only reason we were able to get so far in the competition. The Lord wanted us to share this song with as many people as we could, and while there was equal opposition and challenges that we faced along the way, we persevered. We were the first all female group to ever win the ICCA’s, but to us, that didn’t matter. After the whole thing was over I remember speaking with one of the judges after the show and he said to me. “I don’t know what it was, but when you sang that song…I felt something.” It was then that I bore my testimony to him of the spirit and the love that the Lord has for each of his children. The Lord knows each of us and will always be there to give us hope when we feel like there is none in the world around us.

Manifesto

2009-01-18T21:30:00.000-08:00

MANIFESTO

Something bigger than myself
Answers to questions that lead to more questions
I believe in big t-shirts, oreos,
Fathers and Mothers
I believe in blue, red, yellow, fuscia, green....
CREATION
I believe in heartbreak
I believe in guitar tabs, trashy TV, sudoku, fingernail clippers, doodling and dancing without music----------------------------------------------------wasting time
I believe in more time.
I believe in the power of.....
the human voice
words
beauty
prayer
smiles
a song
I believe in mirrors Reflection noitcelfeR
I believe that sometimes the glass is half empty dang it.
I believe in discovery, truth.

done and done.

So I guess this is the cool thing to do

2008-09-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm not exactly sure how to start this, but here I go.

Today was the 2nd day of classes, of my Senior year at Brigham young University.

Wow...It really doesn't feel like I've been here that long, but I guess it kind of makes sense because right now Utah feels like home. I was kind of hoping I'd never say that, but seeing as how all of my friends are here, as of now it is home.

This year will be a crazy one. As of now I'm working at the Wilk: 10pm - 2am, Sunday- Thursday. Ya...lame. I'm also taking my Advanced Directing Practicum...which basically means I'm directing, producing, rehearsing, and designing a play (it's called Mary, Mary). I'm the Assistant Designer for the Makeup of BYU's production of Thoroughly Modern Millie. And this will be my 3rd year in Noteworthy, and I'll be taking on the duties of Business Director. So basically...I won't be sleeping at ALL this semester. Who needs that stuff anyway...

not me.