p.s.

anytime i am sad...i just watch this video, and i am immediately happy.

byu is great

so...byu is great.

a little over a week ago i was in my LDS lit class, being bored, and i was playing with the ring my mom got me for christmas. it was basically my favorite present. i love it. and while i was playing with it, i dropped it and it rolled like 2 desks away underneath a girls backpack. i made a mental note to get it after class, but if you know me, my mental notes are as permanent as etch-a-sketch's. so when the bell rang at 3:50 i was out of there. it wasn't until the next day that i realized that i had forgotten to pick up the ring.

well..today, 10 days after the incident, kristin had been reminding me to go look in the lost and found. i was sure it wouldn't be there, cause this ring is the coolest thing ever and i was sure that the person who had found it would have kept it for eternity. But i went and amazingly some kind hearted soul had given it to the lost and found.

yay for honest people at byu.

My doodles and Things

This is the back of my notebook. I got this notebook for free from the bookstore...and it had an ugly add on the back for HP computers. I made it pretty.

I did this today in my Dramatic Literature class. They were talking about Marxism, and I wasn't.
Ya...so turns out i do the same thing in all my doodles. I just use different words. Can you tell what I'm obsessed with?
These are my LDS lit notes from 2 weeks ago. I did all of that in 50 mintues.
This is the title of the play I am currently Stage Managing. I think about it A LOT!
I don't know if you can really see it, but that is a 74/75. I just got this test back today from my Dramatic Lit Class. Doodling rocks my world.

oh say can you see?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=SCuJAgR5ynw

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1. If I could have a life time supply of anything in the whole world it would be Savannah's Grandpa's homemade beef jerky.
2. If I had to give myself a title...it would be 'artist'. I love to create, not just in the theater, but on paper and through music as well.
3. My biggest fear in life is failure and disappointing the people that I love.
4. I waste probably 3-5 hours a week watching youtube videos. Mostly of beatboxing and a cappella.
5. I have spent my whole life building walls. I have always been afraid of letting people in, and just in the past month, after 21 1/2 years of life, I have begun to realize that I can't do things on my own. I need people...I need to trust people.
6. I am honestly afraid of what my life will be without noteworthy.
7. I love cereal...way too much because I am lactose-intolerant, and I can't afford lactaid ($5 for a half gallon!!??!??!?! I don't think so.)In no particular order Reeses Puffs, Cinnamon life, Grape nuts, Coco Dynobites, Marshmallow Mateys, Trix, Chex, Apple jacks, Pops, Capt'n Crunch, cookie crisp, and Oh's are just a few of my favorites.
8. I listen to my ipod anytime I am walking anywhere. Even if it's just from the JKB to the HFAC. I feel empty when I leave it on my desk at home.
9. Not meaning to toot my own horn, but lately I keep getting the feeling that one day I will change the world...not sure how yet, but i'm going to try.
10. I peed my pants on a trampoline once. I think I was 11...luckily I was not wearing pants, i was wearing my bathing suit...It was at a pool party. I just jumped in the pool...problem solved.
11. I cried when I typed that last one...I forgot how funny that was, mostly because I was very embarrassed at the time. I don't get embarrassed very easily anymore.
12. My favorite holiday is 4th of July.
13. I hate shopping, it gives me anxiety. Just ask my mom...or katie, or kristin...or anyone really that has been shopping with me. The only exception to the 'shopping-gives-me-anxiety

' rule is ties. I love shopping for ties.
14. I have bad circulation...which means my hands and feet are ALWAYS cold. which sucks cause I can't sleep with socks on.
15. I cry a lot. When i sing, in cars, in theater, sometimes when I am just walking to campus, when I hear a good song, or just when i'm cutting some onions...wouldn't have pegged me for that kind would you?
16. I love lightning, rain, and thunder.
17. Sometimes I take a sick day from school, work, and life...even when i'm not sick. It helps to keep me sane.
18. thanks to Nicole Hogge, i dislike odd numbers. Like volume in the car or on the TV mostly...just keep it even.
19. Anytime and every time I get onto a computer i check three things. yahoo mail. gmail. and facebook. usually nothing exciting has happened. but i still have to check. cause what if?
20. I cannot spell or punctuate properly to save my life. sometimes i wonder if i lived back when they didn't have spell check, if i would be considered illiterate.
21. I love ice. not on the ground...but in my drinks. I hate lukewarm drinks.
22.I burp too much. that's not really a secret. everyone who knows me knows this. and they secretly wish i would stop.
23. I get lost in music. In good music. For example. I just got distracted and took a 15 minute break between the last sentence and this one because of 'You Found Me' by the fray.
24. People change me. I look up to many people. to name a few. Kristin, Catherine, Landon, Mego, My mother, Katie, Ciara, My Father, My grandparents, nicole, jeff, casey, Kelsey, Cotch, Jenga, NAbz, Hash, Cooley, Pea, Amy, basically every noteworthy lady who is, was, and ever will be. Each of you have helped me, changed me, loved me. thank you.
25. i love the smell of coffee.

How Great Thou Art

This is a paper I just wrote for my mission prep class. I realized that I never did document this moment of my life properly...but this is my latest attempt. I don't know that I will ever be able to truly write in words how this felt.

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It was April 21, 2007. I walked onto the Alice Tully Hall Stage of the Lincoln Center in New York City with eight other girls. We had prepared for this moment for months on end and it was finally here. We were about to sing for a sold out crown at the finals of the International Championship of Collegiate A cappella. If you had asked anyone in that audience if 3 months previous they had even heard of Noteworthy from Brigham Young University they would have said no. We had twelve minutes to show them what we were about, and we gave them everything we had. We sang four songs that night, and while three of them were flashy and impressive, we truly only cared about one of them. After the first two songs we all looked at each other and realized that this was the moment. The whole reason why we had gotten this far was because of this song. The pitch is played and we begin to sing, “Oh Lord my God. When I in awesome wonder consider all the worlds thy hands have made.” I remember thinking, who can I touch today? Will there be someone in this audience who will feel the spirit this message brings? “How great thou art, How great thou art.”

The year of 2007 was a difficult one for me; I had been struggling with my own self, and depression. I remember struggling with simple questions, who am I really? Why am I here at this university? I felt inadequate and small. Then I got into Noteworthy, the all female a cappella group on campus. I still struggled but I felt better. I felt like I had a reason to get up in the morning because Noteworthy was something I loved and that I was good at. I could open up on stage and share the gift of song I had been blessed with, with all those who would listen. A few weeks after the semester had started; we had auditions for the solo in ‘How Great Thou Art’. I got it, and while that seemed like such a small thing, it truly changed my life. Although I struggled with small things that solo was a blessing because every time I sang it I felt my Fathers love for me. I felt love. I have been in the group for three years now, and to this day every time we sing that song, I cry. It reminds me of the power my Heavenly Father holds and that he knows everything about me. He knows what I need and how to lift me when I’m having difficult times.

There had been miracles that year with this song. We had the opportunity to sing it for thousands of people across the Country. There were numerous times after performances where people would come up to me and thank me for sharing that song. When I had felt so inadequate that year, I learned that I had been chosen to be a tool in the Lords hands to share the love I had begun to recognize, with so many people who didn’t have the gospel in their lives.

It was the time for my solo, the lights were bright and I felt the warmth of the spirit course through my body. “When Christ shall come with shout of acclamation, and take me home what joy shall fill my heart. And I shall bow in humble adoration, and there proclaim my God how great Thou art. Then sings my soul, How great Thou art.” I am sure that this song was the only reason we were able to get so far in the competition. The Lord wanted us to share this song with as many people as we could, and while there was equal opposition and challenges that we faced along the way, we persevered. We were the first all female group to ever win the ICCA’s, but to us, that didn’t matter. After the whole thing was over I remember speaking with one of the judges after the show and he said to me. “I don’t know what it was, but when you sang that song…I felt something.” It was then that I bore my testimony to him of the spirit and the love that the Lord has for each of his children. The Lord knows each of us and will always be there to give us hope when we feel like there is none in the world around us.

Manifesto

MANIFESTO

Something bigger than myself
Answers to questions that lead to more questions
I believe in big t-shirts, oreos,
Fathers and Mothers
I believe in blue, red, yellow, fuscia, green....
CREATION
I believe in heartbreak
I believe in guitar tabs, trashy TV, sudoku, fingernail clippers, doodling and dancing without music----------------------------------------------------wasting time
I believe in more time.
I believe in the power of.....
the human voice
words
beauty
prayer
smiles
a song
I believe in mirrors Reflection noitcelfeR
I believe that sometimes the glass is half empty dang it.
I believe in discovery, truth.

done and done.